I can’t find words that do Him justice. Instead, I’ll keep this to a few disjointed thoughts and pray that if God knocks on your door this week, you’ll answer. Thank you, as always, for reading and being part of my journey.
You were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love. - Galatians 5:13
God changed my world this year. He changed me.
Last year I struggled through the Christmas season. Fresh out of college and fresh out of a break-up, anxiety and loneliness were my winter companions.
As I get ready for the holidays again this year, I realize I’m still alone and still unsure of my future…
But I’m not lonely.
It says in Revelations 3:20, “I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in…” And because God is the ultimate gentleman, he knocked and waited patiently outside my door for a long time.
I finally answered. I’m glad He thought I was worth the wait.
At this time last year I would have guessed that I’d be in another serious relationship by now. Instead, my heart is longing for a different kind of companionship…
To love people who cannot love me back.
I want to love someone who will never thank me. I want to be a giver, not a taker. I want God to humble my heart until it won’t be satisfied with anything other than Him. I want God to transform my selfish heart into one that serves Him every day.
And if I do that, if I keep pursuing Him, I know that even if I spend every holiday for the rest of my life alone…
My heart will be happy. My heart will be so happy.
Merry Christmas, beautiful friends. May you walk with joy in your spirit and peace in your heart, today and always. ♥