My last boyfriend made me feel significant. His love lifted me to a place of security. I was comfortable. I finally found someone who felt like home to me. I found someone I wanted for keeps.
He dropped me.
He dropped me because that’s what happens when you need constant validation from someone else. You get dropped. You get disappointed. Then, something beautiful happens as your bruises start to fade. You realize that you weren’t meant to find your significance in someone else anyway.
Instead of searching for myself in God, I searched for God in my relationships. It took me a long time to make that connection, but when I did I found something far more fulfilling than any human love I’ve experienced. I looked for myself in my Creator and I found God-given purpose. I found passion as He daily poured love and creativity into my life.
When God takes away something we deeply love, it can leave us feeling forgotten and overlooked. That’s how I used to feel. But I’m learning that pain is often just the initial stage of blessings. God allows us to feel empty so that we hunger for a greater love.
Matthew 5:6 reads, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” I never used to hunger and thirst for righteousness before God got my attention. My spirit was malnourished, but I didn’t notice because I was too busy filling it with other things. Maybe that’s a mistake we all make at some point. We don’t thirst for Christ because we’re drinking in other things (relationships, wealth, job security, etc.) Maybe He uses pain to bring us back to Him when we’ve wandered down the wrong path.
The rain has stopped, the sun is shining, and flowers are popping up everywhere. My heart is bursting with gratitude and praise because I realize that everything beautiful in my life is a gift from God. He lifted me above my pain and set me down in fabulous, bright pink, single girl shoes. I’m thankful that I’ve once again found a love that feels like home and lifts me to a place of a security.
And I know He’ll never drop me.